"Young and Crazy in Love with Jesus"

Fused with tingles of excitement, like a child, my chicks flushed pink, endlessly talking and thinking about You.

A pounding heart, almost ready to explode, is the state I find myself in.

 Yet your unending serenity and the ambiance inspired by your very touch have taken over me.

How could I ever think I could feel this way and love this way—with all my heart, with all my soul, and with all my mind!

 

Yet, I have stepped onto a path that binds everything together in perfect harmony.

Steered into a path where fear is a foreign concept, a path of perfect love.

 It's a feeling I could never find words to express, an urge to shout, and yet at the same time laughter that evokes praise—to declare the wonders of your greatness.

 

I have found the one that my entire being longed for; I have secured the one that truly completes me, the one that I ascribe to.

The one that has become my Rock, my Fortress, and my Deliverer— my all in all.

Your very presence in my life is a never-ending celebration.

 At every thought of knowing you, tears flood my eyes as they draw me to a path of recognition and acknowledgement of how great You are.

 I cannot ignore You; the world cannot ignore You; Your very existence is contagious; it overtakes.

 The one whose voice commands attention while simultaneously soothing and comforting the broken-hearted. 

Whose eyes are always fixed on me, and His ears are always open to my cries.

Metanoia

 

There is no greater joy than the pure understanding,

that despite what people, what your society might say

or think about you, is irrelevant.

Taking this journey is like no other, a moment you realise that you are in control over your attitude and reactions to those perceptions around you.

 

Perceptions intended for your distraction and downfall.

Perceptions instigated to make you doubt yourself, and question all about you.

Allowing yourself the grace to decide what is important to you,

the grace to invite nothing else but positive energy within your space.

 

If it happens that the negativity creeps in, don't be too hard on yourself.

As I said, it's a journey, so reposition and align yourself,

bring yourself to the place you deserve to be in.

Understand that even the best people find themselves in that position,

you are human and at times can find yourself in the most unfavourable position.

 

However, remember each day is an opportunity to try again,

do better and make better decisions for you.

Most importantly, enjoy the journey and learn from every error or mistake.

You are the element that makes life beautiful.

 

Be comfortable in your own skin, in who you are as a person, and never allow yourself to doubt the strength within you.

In you lie great possibilities and beauty that the world be honoured to experience.

 

Look at yourself and perceive nothing but greatness and God’s exquisite display of His artistic abilities.

 Do not wait for others or the world to confirm your worth and value; you are a unique and a rare breed, despite your flaws and imperfections.

Therefore, learn to find joy and love in yourself and allow each day to bring you closer to understanding your divine strength.

 

 

Beauty In The Imperfection

An attempt to convey how I am feeling right now, down to the last drop of sweat, agony, and overpowering emotions. To say I am at ease and in control would be to refuse any assistance offered and foolishly close any door of hope.

For I am plagued by complete turmoil and unrest; what I crave most is stillness, a condition of peace that will lead me to my true self. What I want is something bigger than me, capable of taking away all my sufferings. What I see in my reflection now is a self that I no longer know, consumed by the world's anxieties and unfairness. 

Who could possibly lift this burden off my shoulders, totally grasp how I feel, and be capable of bringing peace to the insanity and chaos within? 

Despite everything, I remain positive, hopeful that the world will give me something larger than myself and that there is more to life than the havoc around me.

Glory to God, what I desired and what I prayed for is before my very own eyes. 

What I almost forgot and feared I could ever attain has become a reality—a beautiful reality, almost denying what once held me hostage and in bondage. 

Yet the present speaks loudly and acknowledges that it was with each comfort received and the soothing words of consolation and encouragement from the most high God that led to this moment—the person I am meant to be—a fearless, strong, bold, and courageous being.

One that is destined for greatness and not a life of misery or ridicule. One that is not consumed by the mess in their lives anymore. 

Having fully embraced the beauty amid the mess-transitioned from where I was once at to where He original destined me to be-a state of peace and joy. 

An attempt to express how I am currently feeling, down to the last drop of optimism, peace, and joy. To say I am at ease and in control is a true testament to what God has done for me and how He has restored my life.