Beauty In The Imperfection

An attempt to convey how I am feeling right now, down to the last drop of sweat, agony, and overpowering emotions. To say I am at ease and in control would be to refuse any assistance offered and foolishly close any door of hope.

For I am plagued by complete turmoil and unrest; what I crave most is stillness, a condition of peace that will lead me to my true self. What I want is something bigger than me, capable of taking away all my sufferings. What I see in my reflection now is a self that I no longer know, consumed by the world's anxieties and unfairness. 

Who could possibly lift this burden off my shoulders, totally grasp how I feel, and be capable of bringing peace to the insanity and chaos within? 

Despite everything, I remain positive, hopeful that the world will give me something larger than myself and that there is more to life than the havoc around me.

Glory to God, what I desired and what I prayed for is before my very own eyes. 

What I almost forgot and feared I could ever attain has become a reality—a beautiful reality, almost denying what once held me hostage and in bondage. 

Yet the present speaks loudly and acknowledges that it was with each comfort received and the soothing words of consolation and encouragement from the most high God that led to this moment—the person I am meant to be—a fearless, strong, bold, and courageous being.

One that is destined for greatness and not a life of misery or ridicule. One that is not consumed by the mess in their lives anymore. 

Having fully embraced the beauty amid the mess-transitioned from where I was once at to where He original destined me to be-a state of peace and joy. 

An attempt to express how I am currently feeling, down to the last drop of optimism, peace, and joy. To say I am at ease and in control is a true testament to what God has done for me and how He has restored my life.